[FIRST PART]
She walks down strumming
my strings when she’s waving back at me.
And I find myself falling,
like those leaves who have forgotten what spring means.
In this city of bridges,
to connect feels much harder than before,
and not even, this open attitude,
can distract me from the insecurities
that makes me feel so small…
[SECOND PART]
So, people come and go.
Even you yourself
are not the same
as you were the day before.
And though it seems
really obvious,
clichés hurt twice as hard,
when they apply to you.
So, people come and go.
Even I myself
am not the same
I was the day before
And though it seems
notoriously hard to accept,
you can’t control the memories
that you’ll come to forget…
[THIRD PART]
But even if our paths are tangled,
hardly ever looking straight,
this life is a jungle.
We’re just monkeys who play.
And yeah, its safe to say,
that no matter how blue you feel,
there is someone out there wonderin’
how you’ve been.
And don’t get me started on you aptitudes
the amount of shit you take goes on you attitude
and there will be times where you’ll have to embrace the solitude,
and many more when you’ll be full with gratitude.
Hug your friends, show them what’s your love’s magnitude.
(Unless you know… Global pandemic and Social distancing apply)
[OUTRO]
So, people come and go.
Even you yourself
are not the same
as you were the day before.
But at this time
that I’m here singing with you…
I feel you like a part of me,
maybe I’ll add something to you.
This is the first song I’ve managed to put together in English. It’s really fun to play, as there’s a lot of finger-picking and some changes in the tone and groove. However I think I bit more than I could chew with the lyrics: at the moment I can’t reach the notes I had imagined for the singing, and the rap-ish third part feels like a tongue twister. But I’ll get wherever I imagine eventually.
I’m really happy today, full of some sort of hope about nothing concrete. And that bewitching feeling, perpetuated by thoughts about last night’s events, outbalance whatever new uncertainty life has ready to slap me with.
This song started with the first verse’s wordplay, with no particular direction in mind, but soon after isolation started, I felt like spinning it off a bit.
I feel this song reflects three stages I’ve undergone ever since I came to Australia.
The first part, I’d say, reflects my first weeks here, raw emotions everywhere, a bit of fear of missing out, a bit of a feeling of urgency to create meaningful bonds with people… The «romantic» mess I was, terrified of the thought that for the first time, being by myself wasn’t enough.
The second part, and I think the chords have a big part on that sensation, feels like a period of acceptance, almost resignation. It felt that I was far from finding chemistry with anybody. All my attempts to build a cool atmosphere in my flat had fallen on deaf ears, but I had no regrets, because I think I did all I could, respecting everyone else’s right to not want to. The group of people I had ended up hanging out with at the beginning dissolved, as many went back to their countries. But in a way, I was also relieved because I never truly felt that I was acting like myself when I was around them.
People come and go. And that’s perfectly fine, it will happen all your life.
But with some people you end up lying when saying goodbye. And it’s beautiful, because you don’t feel like you’re going to lose them, but rather, you feel happy that they will continue walking their own paths, and happy that you walked a bit of yours with them. Even if it felt like sprinting.
Then the third part, is the reconciliation. The realisation that of course there are people that love me even if we are not in close contact. People I can be apart from for months and still have that complicity whenever we talk, people I associate objects, experiences or even sensations with.
I imagine myself like a 3rd person when singing that, as if I was giving myself advice from another character that has nothing to do with me and yet, feels entitled to expose their opinion. And I have to agree with them. You might be thinking about a universe, but there’s ever so much you can put into words in a conversation. I’ll give them that. Plus if it were me I’d probably pass that advice on.
At the end there is the only part of the song I have no doubts about: the «confession». The sincere feeling that I care about the ones I’m sharing the song with, especially those 5 I sang it for the first time, people I really respect and admire. I feel that I have a lot to learn from them, they are unique persons with lots of beautiful and interesting quirks and traits. And who knows, maybe there’s something in myself that might be of interest to them too.
This all sounds pedantic. Like I’m enlightened or some shit, and I kind of feel like an arrogant know-it-all after re-reading. But I guess it’s an excerpt of how I feel about friendship at the moment, the year I turn 21, the first time I’m on my own in a foreign country. Days before a great friend parts ways for God knows how long.
Efervescente 